Directions

I often think about the direction my living room sliding glass doors face.  I live in a condo and I do not have many windows.  I only have three windows and two sets of sliding glass doors.  Even with so few windows, my condo is filled with light during the day.  The most wonderful time is in the mornings.  My balcony faces east and as the sun rises, it shines into my home to wake me up and help me start my day.

As I stumble into my kitchen to make a pot of coffee, I look through my sea foam-colored curtains toward the light.  I take a deep breath and give thanks for the day, the sun and the many blessings in my life.  I appreciate all of my experiences and I have no regrets.  In these moments I think about the directions my life has taken:

• From the east coast of Florida to the west coast of California where I completed my graduate work (a lifelong dream).
• Coming to the realization that I may never have a baby and not really knowing how I feel about this. Am I ambivalent or am I just hiding my true feelings?
• Losing my father on my 19th birthday and feeling lost without him. I also hate that my husband never knew my dad.
• Being okay with the relationships I have with family members; though, I will always wish that we were closer.
• Discovering that I love change, moving to different places and experiencing new adventures. I can't imagine staying in one place forever.
• Getting a pretty big adrenaline rush the first time I discovered EBay and ending up with some land in Arkansas.  Neither my husband nor I have been on EBay since that late-night purchase.
• Celebrating that 15 years ago today my husband and I became a couple. We had no idea our one night stand would turn into a beautiful life together. I never would have imagined that I'd meet my soul mate at a tavern over a pitcher of beer - God works in mysterious ways.

Sometimes I get anxious when I don't have a sense of where my life is headed.  It is so easy to feel lost instead of excited when I'm not sure what path I'm on or what direction to go.  I discovered a verse that I carry with me during moments like these.  

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight. 

Proverbs 3:5-6

Winding Path
Somewhere in Florida
(I have a bad memory & can't remember where this is)

Do you embrace all of your experiences or do you have regrets?