Dream Messages

Since God doesn't text or have a phone, I believe that He leaves us messages via dreams.  I've been having really vivid dreams lately - weird ones.  My dreams are like miniature movies - they're colorful, have a variety of characters, interesting plots and elicit many different emotions.

In the past few nights I have dreamt that:

• I owned a mountain lion as a pet and was concerned that buying steaks would start to get expensive.  I was feeding him steaks so he wouldn't eat my other pets.  I was really anxious in this dream because I was afraid that I couldn't protect my dog from being eaten by my mountain lion.
• Someone introduced me to a friend who she thought would make a good mentor.  When I met the guy, he told me that I had interviewed him months ago and never got back to him.  I couldn't remember who he was so he showed me a photo album.  It turns out, that he was friends with my dad when he was alive.  When I am stressed and overwhelmed, I become forgetful.  It's really bad when you forget things in your dreams. 
• My three friends from high school came to visit me for a holiday.  We hadn't seen each other in a while and I was really looking forward to it.  One of them felt guilty for spending the holiday with friends instead of family.  I encouraged her to do what she felt was right and I could tell she was conflicted.  I knew that she did not feel comfortable being at my house.  I knew that she needed to leave so I began helping her pack and then she shared this gem that still lingers in my thoughts:

"I'm changing being here." 

I am becoming a different person in my current situation.  I am not the same person I was four years ago or ten years ago.  Places and life circumstances change us.  They add layers of experience to our minds and spirits.  I believe that they will keep piling up until we take our last breath.  It's life.  It is forever changing as we are forever changing. 

Now, the questions I have been asking myself are:  "Am I changing for the better or for the worse?" and "Is being here (this place in my life) good for me?" 

If yes, awesome.  If not, I need to do something.  I need to re-focus and re-center myself in Christ.  When I do, He gives me the strength that I need to open myself to endless possibilities.

 

Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love,

for I have put my trust in you.

Show me the way I should go, for to you I entrust my life.

 

Psalm 143: 9