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| Broken Sand Dollars |
I never wished for pain or disappointment. I didn't want to lose my sense of self in my first serious relationship. I didn't want my dad to die on my birthday. I never would have imagined going four years without speaking to my family. These things hurt. They made me cry in agony and curse God. There were times when I didn't think I would make it. Can someone die from heartache? I had moments where I thought so. I felt discouraged and completely broken.
But, because I was broken, I am now stronger. I am confident and assertive. I trust in God and I learn from my mistakes. If I hadn't been through my broken times, I wouldn't be who I am today. These experiences, however painful they were, helped me become the woman I am - they molded me into today's Jaime because I learned to embrace them. The Jaime who is both excited and nervous about the future. The Jaime who is best friends with her husband. The Jaime who can love her family and set boundaries at the same time. The Jaime who loves God and has faith that He will never ever forsake her.
*I'm participating in the 2013 A to Z Challenge. Every day in April (except for Sundays) I will be posting according to a letter of the Alphabet. To read more about my theme, click here.
Very powerful. Disappointment rearranges things, I think.
ReplyDeletePS I feel like I almost died from heartbreak. Thank God, he prevailed and I didn't die but became the person I needed to be all along.
It does - it sort of gives us a different perspective, even if we aren't looking for one. I'm happy you prevailed as well.
Delete"What doesn't kill us makes us stronger." I have heard that, but I don't actually agree. Just another perspective here. What I do think is that we have to make a choice to go on, in the middle of heartbreak, or not. I felt for you about your dad dying on your birthday. My brother died on another family member's birthday, a week after his own, which he was too weak in a hospital bed to even acknowledge, let alone celebrate. I don't actually think that it made me the person I need to be or anything, but I do think it gives me more insight into the agony of loss, and I do think I can understand whenever I look at my mom, whenever I look at photos of him, that it takes incredible strength to 'soldier on' after a loss. And it gives us more compassion for others going through something similar. Another perspective, I do enjoy reading your blog.
ReplyDeleteI love to hear different perspectives. I'm sorry to hear about your brother. I agree that these kind of things give us more insight. Just like you mentioned, I also think that they help us become more sensitive to others who are going through traumas or tragedies in the sense that we can offer them genuine comfort. Maybe this is a kind of wisdom? Thanks so much for your comment.
DeleteA family member of mine is dealing with being "broken" right now. What wonderful words of encouragement.
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Thank you for stopping by. Sorry to hear about your family member. I'll keep him/her in my thoughts.
DeleteWhat beautiful words, you have a very positive way of thinking. It's hard losing a parent, I really feel for you losing your dad on your birthday. I too see my husband as my best friend. Look forward to your next post x
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DeleteIt can hurt so much. I am glad that a young woman like you learned to become stronger in faith in God and in yourself instead of becoming bitter.
ReplyDeleteMe, too. He sure is good at filling voids:) Thanks for the authentic words. Enjoy your weekend.
DeleteHonest and sweet. hello again! Just got to you on the A=Z linky list. You write so beautifully.
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Thanks, Mare.
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