I don't understand the world we live in. I'm deeply saddened, terrified, angry and confused. I feel empty. Why do things like this happen? These were the first words I spoke to God when hearing about the shooting in Connecticut. I've been pondering this all day long and I have come to the conclusion that I will never understand.
Things like this are a jolt. I felt my faith wobble. I can't imagine how those parents feel. How are they going to get through this? I had no idea what to pray for this morning. I was too angry.
There are so many extremes in this world. Last night, I attended a Christmas party that someone donated for the kids I work with. It was a night filled with laughter, smiles, hugs, love and gratitude. It was an amazing night. It reminded me of the goodness in the world.
Then, I heard about the shooting and I am reminded of the evil that exists all around us. I keep thinking about those children today. Their fear and confusion. Their screams for help. I wish that I could have been there. I wish that I could have saved them. I picture myself as their catcher in the rye.
No more innocence. No more growing. Childless parents. Traumatized teachers. This is almost too much to take. While I cried on my way home from work, I finally prayed that God would wrap those affected by today's tragedy in His love. Honestly, I don't know what else to pray for.
As I got out of my car, I heard my neighbors talking about the shooting. This incident has affected everyone. It amazes me that evil can bring us together just as goodness can. This upsets me on a very deep level and I am devestated.
Prayer: God, I don't understand this and I don't think I want to. Please be with the families of those who lost loved ones. Comfort the survivors as they struggle with this tragedy. I know that you have welcomed those innocent children into heaven - remind their families that they are with You. Help me stay true to my faith. It faltered today. Help others feel your presence and know that they are not alone.