I was at a training today and it was tough. The entire day was centered around child safety. We heard stories from child sexual abuse survivors as well as those who have molested. I'm thankful that the lights were out when we were watching certain videos because I couldn't help to cry.
Why are there so many bad people in the world? I just don't understand it.
Participating in this training makes me want to change jobs. I want to work in an office or a coffee shop or at a campground. It is so difficult being responsible for child safety. There is so much evil out there - it terrifies me. It really, really scares me.
I listened to one individual talk about how he had molested over 100 children. He showed no remorse. I wanted to kill him.
Just as I was questioning my work, the presenter told our group that for every trained professional, ten children become safer. So, because of the 30 people who were trained to screen and identify potential child molesters, 300 children are in safer situations. This made me feel better. This reminded me of why I deal with the difficult stuff. It's for the kids. Thank God for those of us who have the strength to stick around for a little while in this field.
I still wish that abuse wasn't a part of this world. I wish that no one ever had endure it. I wish that children were always safe, always loved and always put first. God, please help those of us in these roles stay intuitive, attentive, open, sane, compassionate and intentional.