I've been working on my blog and glanced at my profile. I noticed that it still read that I am was in my early thirties. When exactly does one transition from her early thirties to mid thirties? Because, I think that I am there. I've never really cared about age - mine or other people's. My husband is 13 years older than I am, I have friends who are in their 50's and 60's and I have been known to hang out with a few 20 year olds.
For some reason, realizing that I am in mid-thirties is lingering over me. The thing is, I still feel young. I love really loud hard rock music, I'm a bit of a gypsy, I'd have lots of tats if I didn't work in a professional environment and I still have many different adventures to go on. I don't know what 34 is supposed to feel like but I do know that I don't feel 34. The reality is, I am getting older - in both good ways and not-so-good ways.
So, for the not-so-good ways: I can't sleep on my right side because my shoulder will start hurting; a 5th grader I work with joked that I could be her mother and, after I did the math in my head, I realized that she was correct; I am using my tweezers a lot more often than I did a few years ago; I'm really appreciating the power of push-up bras more and more; even if I become pregnant today, by the time I'd deliver I would be referred to as "advanced maternal age"; staying out until 10:00 p.m. is a late night; college students call me ma'am; and lately when I look at my feet, I see my mother's.
Now, for the good ways: the older I get, the less I care what people think of me; I am more confident in myself than I ever have been; if I forget my ID when I go out for a drink, it won't matter; I am no longer naive; I've become more patient and understanding; not only have I learned to say "no" but I'm comfortable with it as well; I have my own family; I've found true love; my husband is my best friend and I wouldn't have it any other way; I only dress up when I want to, not because I feel obligated (hell, I wore flip flops on my first night out in Vegas); I appreciate the art of reflection; and I am becoming much more spiritual.
I want to embrace all aspects of aging - the wisdom, patience and compassion along with the wrinkles, cracking joints and moments of forgetfulness. I feel that those who rejoice in becoming older are beautiful and strong. This life on earth is so short - God would want us to be happy. As Bette Davis said, "Old age is no place for sissies".