|St. Augustine Lighthouse|
I have these types of awakenings from time to time. There were many during my graduate work - the title of my portfolio was "Awakenings and Reflections" which is where I came up with the name for this blog. Or maybe it was the other way around. I don't remember. I just know that it is very important to me to always reflect on the various aspects of my life and, hopefully, discover new things about myself in the process.
Though, not so many awakenings lately. It's as if the busyness of life has devoured my capacity for self-discovery. I reflect all the time. While I'm cooking, watching a movie, trying to sleep, taking a shower - I'm always reflecting on my purpose in life and trying to figure out what God actually wants me to do.
This has been one of my recent awakenings: our plans are not always His. I figured this out when my plans began failing. As I was torturing myself about why things weren't happening the way I wanted them to, it occurred to me that maybe it was because they weren't meant to. Ah ha moment.
What do I do now? I am not really sure. So, I just start praying. I pray for guidance and for clarity. I pray for strength while I continue to reach upward. I pray that I see the signs God shows me and that I understand they are from Him. Most of all, I pray for patience and the ability to transcend the busyness of life so that I can be more open to life's amazing awakenings.
*I'm participating in the 2013 A to Z Challenge. Every day in April (except for Sundays) I will be posting according to a letter of the Alphabet. To read more about my theme, click here.