Seventeen years later and I still do not attend church. I have been to a few services recently but I don't feel any closer to God when I go to church. For me, my relationship with God is between Him and I - I don't need the church to strengthen or foster it. So, when I first decided to reconnect with God I was pretty confused. Then, I remembered my old pink Bible and I began reading God's Word again. I still do not fully grasp the history of the Bible but I do believe what I read. I believe in the Bible because I have faith that it is a true account of God's Word. I've been reflecting on the meaning of real faith. I love this example in the book of Hebrews:
By faith Abraham, when called to go to a place he would later receive as his inheritance,
obeyed and went, even though he did not know where he was going.
I think this verse is so indicative of true faith. In today's world, can you imagine someone saying that she is following God's path even thought she has no idea where she is going? Most people would think someone like this was mentally unstable. I think this verse explains the beauty, simplicity and strength of faith. I want to be like Abraham. I want to follow God even when I have no idea where I am going.
When I read God's Word, I feel connected to Him. I feel that He answers prayers, explains things I am confused about and guides me to do His will. I have faith that God's Word is the flame that has ignited my relationship with him.
The grass withers and the flowers fall, but the word of our God endures forever.